First of all, Thank you so much for your congratulations and sharing our joy with us. You have no idea how much it means to us. Many of you don’t know just how hard a road it has been to finally be able to say, we are expecting. Because the truth is, this isn’t the first time. Or the second. Or even the third. And we have been told many reasons why this would likely not happen again for us, but here we are…expecting a little boy.
Although it was really exciting to finally be able to share the little secret we have kept for 17 weeks, it was also very, very difficult for me. Having gone through four years of infertility/losses, I know just how hard a pregnancy announcement can be, especially if it happened to be a particularly rough day. Before I clicked the upload button, I worried about all the women(and men) who are struggling to have a baby. I wondered if maybe their due date was in October too, but now they don’t have a due date anymore. Or if they got the news that day that there was no longer a heart beat. Maybe they just lost the baby they did IVF to have, with no frozen embryos left. Or maybe they were told by their reproductive endocrinologist surrogacy was the best option at this point. Or maybe they sat at an adoption orientation completely discouraged at just how much it would cost to build their family.
All of these things went through my head, because I have lived all of them. I hope you know that if our announcement caused your heart to hurt a little bit, I understand. And I pray God gives you the desire of your heart as He has done for us after waiting and wondering and praying for what felt like a very long time. And I know that there are no guarantees, and even though my Dr. has told me I’m in the “safe zone,” I know there is no such thing. But I’m really so thankful for every single day I’ve had(even the ones where I threw up in the driveway) since the day we found out. And what an absolute surprise blessing it was that day.
Sometimes Doctors in all their “wisdom” say no, but God can, and is able to say yes and we are so humbled He did. So if you find yourself where I was for years, keep praying and keep asking, because, “He is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine…” Eph 3:20.